When Rev. George of the Namaste’ Center for Spiritual Oneness asked me if I would be guest speaker on December 20, and I eagerly agreed , the topic of what I wanted to speak about was in my head immediately. “Open to Receiving” was right there in front of my face so I am assuming that is what Spirit wanted me to talk about. And I have learned the hard way to listen to Spirit or else I get the big cosmic kick in the pants!
Ironically I did not pick this topic because of Christmas, I hadn’t even thought about Christmas, but I chose this topic because of some energies I had been working with for myself and others. But what a great time to open ourselves to receiving, but at Christmas time!
To be able to communicate my message about open to receiving, I first want to first talk to you about energy and the subtle energy systems we humans have.
Every thing is energy. You are energy, buildings, chairs, the floor beneath our feet, the clothes we wear, the air we breath , everything is energy. Our words and thoughts are energy. Have you thought much about the fact that thoughts, words, and beliefs systems are energy?
We have a physical body and an etheric body, also called the luminous body or spirit body. Our physical bodies feel pain from blunt force trauma or illness, and our etheric bodies store the memory and energy of all emotional and physical trauma. In other words, when we are subject to trauma, be it physical, emotional, mental or Spiritual, we allow that energy to come into our sacred space and we store it somewhere in our etheric body only to have something trigger that energy later in life. We do this in a most subconscious way. Most disease’s can be tracked back to a trauma that started as just heavy energy stored in the body and grows denser in time without release.
Every thing has polarity, for every “in” there is an out, for dark there is light, for up there is down, negative there is positive, for ever giving there is a receiving, and so on and so on. This keeps balance in the Universe. So when things aren’t going so smooth in your life, ask yourself “Where am I out of balance. Am I asking for or receiving too much without giving thanks, am I being too negative without nurturing the positive?
Often times with clients who feel like their life is too negative or out of balance, I have them do a gratitude exercise, which quickly brings them back to a place of balance and they begin to feel light again. This is a good exercise for us during the holidays when we spend too much money or spend too much time trying to please everyone else and find ourselves depleted and annoyed.
Most of you have probably seen the movie the Secret, where they teach you that you can have anything you want by visualizing and believing that you deserve it. Or the Law of Attraction which is one of the Universal laws that teaches us to visualize what we and see it as already being and it will be yours. And I truly believe that these thoughts or practices work. But what if you have a block that is keeping out those things that you truly want?
Maybe you are spending a lot of time telling yourself that you want a certain thing in your life, you visualize it, you keep it in your mind, and nothing is changing so you give up on that little experiment. But it’s not really that it doesn’t work, but it might possibly be that you are blocked in the receiving department.
We’re all really good at giving, of giving love, goodies, gifts, time helping others. For instance, maybe you’ve helped all your friends move, but when it was your turn to move, they didn’t reciprocate? Maybe there is a block that you created that says “I don’t need help from anyone, I‘m too independent to ask for help, and I shouldn‘t have to ask for help, they should just do it”. We might all be strong and independent, but giving so much of ourselves and not allowing reciprocation to happen, is not a sign of weakness, it is a sign of blockage.
Most of us are good people, we love our families and neighbors, we give to charities and we tithe, but things aren’t coming back to us like we want them to. Well maybe it’s because we’re not looking at the fact that we many have created an energetic block to receiving.
Why do these blocks happen? There are many reasons why.
Let me name just a few.Childhood woundsReligious control
Who’s ever felt not worthy because of something a preacher said, or maybe even a teacher. I’ve had to do a lot of clearing and healing around that mean ol’ Mrs. Anderson said to me in the 5th grade.Comparing yourselfSocial conditioning
There is an unsung hero in the Bible named Jabez. In Hebrew, Jabez means pain. Jabez’s Mother had an unusually painful birth with him so she named him Jabez. Of course he lived with lots of ridicule over his name, but his claim to fame came because of his simple prayer to God. The prayer he prayed every day was “God, please bless me and please bless me a lot.”
God did bless Jabez a lot. There is much more to that story, and one that can be read in a small, sweet, sweet book called the Prayer of Jabez, that is a very inspiring read.
What about when we were kids and subject to teasing and name calling from other kids, or parents who didn’t know how “words” they used to control their children could hurt them later in life! Even though we know those things aren’t true about us, the energy of that thought or those words have mass and take up residency in our etheric luminous bodies.And what about you men
Tears, crying, showing emotion, these are Gods built in cleansing systems. How many times have you just let yourself get so down you just feel like crying?
And when you finally do let yourself cry, and it’s over, it’s like that feeling after a long awaited spring shower and then the rainbow comes out. And you suddenly feel in balance again. Crying is like a self cleaning oven.
Or when children are told to be quiet because they should be seen and not heard. There’s a big block in the throat chakra. I personally projected that one for years. But I recognized it, found it, and released it.
For many years my ego told me not to speak my mind because everyone would just perceive me as stupid. But in my heart, I felt like I had a lot of good to share. Before I released that old story, I wouldn’t have stood up hear and talked to anyone. Now I don’t care what anyone thinks about what I have to say being stupid or not. What I have to say is “MY TRUTH”.
How many of us, when someone asks what we’d like for our birthday or Christmas, humbly say “Oh, I don’t really need or want anything“, but our souls are screaming inside, “I want it all! Can‘t you see that”! When we do this, we are sending a signal to the universe that we don’t want or need anything. So energetically we create a block for that flow to come to us.
And the one of the biggest lie’s that we tell ourselves is that we are sinners and don’t deserve God’s love! Somewhere in our “flow system” is a big mass of energy that when triggered can really cause depression and lead to other illness’s over unworthiness of Gods love. I often find that at the root of most depression is a Spiritual illness such as this. This was also the philosophy of the great psychologist Carl Jung.
We all have old relationship issues that we like to wear as protective armor. Our ego tells us that all of our relationships have been and will be the same disappointment, so we close ourselves off to receiving love.
And really is the energy of the old story we tell ourselves that keeps us attracting the same kind of relationships that are not in alignment with our highest good.
And when our ego tells us that we are not worthy of the kind of relationship that our hearts truly desire, we block the flow of that kind of relationship coming to us.
These energies of “opening to Receiving” came to me in a painful but bitter sweet, “wa ha” moment that I’ll never forget. I sometimes feel that the Divine uses me as an “example to get a point across” and I often feel like they are up there saying, “Hey lets use Teresa Arney as a guinea pig, she’s tough, she can take it”.
Well, to tell you this, I have to be a little vulnerable, but if it helps you to understand how we can be our own worst enemies, and our own greatest healers, I’m willing to show my vulnerability.
I had for some time been longing for “that one true love, ” of a life time. I visioned it, called it too me, lit red candles, read all of the right books on relationship, had spoiled rotten child of God tantrums, and did everything that I thought would help me to manifest that relationship.
I felt this relationship coming closer and of course every reading I got, told me about this relationship coming in and enough about him that when I met him, my heart told me immediately that it was him.
Upon dating, every old trigger from my past relationships came flooding in. The Teresa “ego self” was way out of control. Those triggers made me feel and act like an absolute nut case. I was even given a vision one day of him standing still and I was running around him like a crazy woman. The old feelings of not being worthy came in and of course my ego wanted me to think that it was him that wasn’t open to receiving love.
One morning early last summer I was on my to Pathways very early to open up and set the stage for the annual “Bayfield yard sale” as quite a few people were coming to Pathways to sell their items. I had let my ego and old triggers get so way out of hand, that I started to think that maybe this relationship wasn’t supposed to happen.
So I’m driving along, thinking about this and I said out loud, cause I usually talk to Spirit out loud when I’m driving, “Please Spirit, let me detach from this person as I know his heart is not open to Love.
That’s when the giant cosmic “sucker punch” hit me right in my heart chakra, and that voice, that STILL SMALL VOICE INSIDE which at the time felt very condescending, but we all know that the Divine is NOT condescending, said to me “Oh, like you’re open to receiving love”!!
I kid you not, that sucker punch created such a instant physical pain in my heart, that I thought I was having the big one! I spontaneously burst into tears and this flood of old pain from past relationships flooded through my mind. You know how they say when your dying, your whole life passes before your eyes? So that combined with the pain in my heart, I’m thinking I’m done. It’s a good thing that we always have Angelic co-pilots when we drive cause I’m having a “wa – ha” moment driving 60 down 160 to Pathways. Okay, maybe 65 because I was the one with the key and people were waiting on me and I was late.
Then another wave of tears hit, and when I cry, I look like Rudolph the Red nosed reindeer. And then I’m thinking about all the people waiting on me s and how I must look. I remember asking out load “What the heck is going on with me”! And the voice came back and said, “you’re having a release my dear”. I had no idea that I was so closed to receiving love.
Everything in that relationship changed that day. The energy shifted so drastically and I felt peaceful; foolish, but peaceful. When he called me later that day, I cold tell that every thing had changed and that was the beginning of me allowing love into my life.
The thing that blows my mind is that I’ve always been a big “giver of love and of myself”, and I knew that I wanted love in my life but I had no clue that I was blocking it.
Unconsciously we block most of the wonderful gifts that we came to this Earth to enjoy. Like unconditional love, joy, abundance; all the gifts that God has waiting for us.
So I want to give you the opportunity to work on clearing more space for receiving all that your heart and soul truly desire.
Think of just one thing that you may be telling yourself that really is not the Truth, or an old “story” that no longer serves you, that may be blocking your receptivity flow. Most of us know at least one thing that we would like to release and by closing our eyes and going inside, we can usually find where we store that energy.
Give yourself permission to release it. Don’t get too much in your head with this process. Your soul knows what and where it is. Use the vibration of the crystal bowl, a drum, or just sitting and breathing deeply with the intent to release the old energies. While you are doing this, remind yourself that you are deserving of all of Creator Gods gifts and graces.Remember that your old stories are just stories, and that you are co-author and you can change your stories at will.
And ”Oh my God”, what about that whole thought “Men shouldn’t cry or show emotion. It‘s a sign of weakness.”! How wrong is that!! . We’ve all heard that it’s wrong to ask God for things! That belief system is “mans” law and goes against Gods law, and makes us feel small and powerless. That is not at all what God wants for us, and to me, that’s another “thought form curse“, which is an energy, that creates a block to receiving all of the gifts God has waiting for us. to others; that can create a big block for you. We can never be someone else. When we are constantly comparing ourselves to others, we block the flow of our own unique gifts and our Divine personal power.is a big one. Old religious thought forms that really defy Gods intentions for us. I see a lot of clients that are stuck in life because of religious “guilting”. To me, that is a solid “thought form curse”. that were never healed. Sadly there are still parents who berate their children. And choose to use guilt and shame to control their children.
